Vanessa Bryant with her 13-year-old daughter, Gianna opens up for the first time after husband Kobe Bryant's helicopter crash that\u00a0she is experiencing following the tragic deaths of her husband.\r\n\r\nThis is the first time that Vanessa has expressed her personal feelings after a helicopter crash took the lives of her loved ones. Although Vanessa has been active on social media over the past week, she explains that she has been \u201creluctant\u201d to \u201cput [her] feelings into words.\u201d\r\n\r\nAs with many people who are forced to grieve a spouse or a child, Vanessa is experiencing the heartache along with the rollercoaster of emotions that grief tends to bring along with it. She shared those feelings in a candid\u00a0Instagram\u00a0post on Monday afternoon. The caption, pasted below, accompanied a sweet video showing highlights of Gianna Bryant\u2019s basketball career with some sweet moments of Kobe mixed in.\r\n\r\n\u201cI\u2019ve been reluctant to put my feelings into words. My brain refuses to accept that both Kobe and Gigi are gone. I can\u2019t process both at the same time. It\u2019s like I\u2019m trying to process Kobe being gone but my body refuses to accept my Gigi will never come back to me. It feels wrong. Why should I be able to wake up another day when my baby girl isn\u2019t being able to have that opportunity?! I\u2019m so mad. She had so much life to live. Then I realize I need to be strong and be here for my 3 daughters. Mad I\u2019m not with Kobe and Gigi but thankful I\u2019m here with Natalia, Bianka, and Capri. I know what I\u2019m feeling is normal. It\u2019s part of the grieving process. I just wanted to share in case there\u2019s anyone out there that\u2019s experienced a loss like this. God I wish they were here and this nightmare would be over. Praying for all of the victims of this horrible tragedy. Please continue to pray for all.\u201d\r\n\r\nhttps:\/\/www.instagram.com\/p\/B8ZavYwDZ5y\/\r\n\r\nVanessa\u2019s post received more than two million likes in the first hour that it was uploaded. Hundreds of people have commented, sending love and support to Vanessa and her family, especially her three girls, Natalia, 17, Bianka, 3, and Capri, 7 months. Several celebrities have also commented on the post, including Kyle Richards, Brandy Norwood, and Courtney Lopez.\r\n\r\nKobe and Gianna Bryant were killed along with seven others when the helicopter they were riding in crashed in Calabasas, California, on January 26. A public memorial for Kobe and Gianna will be held at the Staples Center on February 24, at 10 a.m. local time.